Kell

I’m super excited!  I’m a real bona fide guild member. Perfect timing too, I just got my first legendary. Oooooooooooooh yeah. 

2 years ago I made a leap put myself out there and join RoH through the swtor division from watching videos such as Swtorista it wasn't until later that Aravail who I had been watching for the 3 months before was part of the same community youtube such a small world . At this time I began to become independent diagnosed with Aspergers my family overcompensated for me in terms of control and shelter the home I am in was bought with money my grandfather left me when he died because he knew better than most how hard it was for me to interact with the world. My income is through rent money of the master bedroom and my own small self created job as a proof reader for future self-publish authors I tried working for a publishing house but my disability allowed others to take advantage of me under the guise of friendship I would help with their work on top of my own anyway anyway its in the past am happier working for myself.

Before going on a little background is required I had only played WoW with my father who always insisted that no one on the internet is my friend and to never tell them where I am I thought everyone had been told this but in my rebellious youth 18 (late bloomer  ) I secretly used the account he set up for me to play on other realms join other guilds because all i ever wanted while growing up is people to game with. My father  grew furious with me I couldn't understand why in his own misguided way he thought he was keeping me safe...too bad it was scarring and during 2016 we had a fight and our relationship has never been the same sadly I stopped playing any MMO's after that fight something that brought me so much pain I didn't want it in my life. I put my head down and I worked from 8am to 6pm getting crappy jobs and pay but it gave me enough independence to want more from my life little did I know it would cost me another family member after my grandfather passed away my uncle and I grew close but as he hit his late 70's he had to give up living in his family home to live in a nursing home I took over the place looking after it instead of rent....couldn't afford the place otherwise. Taking him away from his home ultimately killed him three weeks later he passed in his sleep he must have known because in his will he left the property to me he had no children of his own and believed while I don't have the last name after the fight with my father I have all but taken my mother last name that it should stay with a Griffin. Depression came around how can it not the number of people I interacted with was slowly fading playing games by myself no longer stave the pangs of loneliness then came RoH.

With a small income I decided to take a leap after binge-watching youtube videos about swtor I enjoyed the storyline videos that Aravail did then came a recommendation video made by Swtorista after watching it took a lot for me to write out the application I was so self-conscious about my answers I messaged the swtor RO at the time in a panic that I forgot to even post it! looking back I can laugh about it now because I was so focused on leveling my first toon Vannatos the last half of my name shorten is from thankfully  I was able to be a bit more conservative about my answers this time.  When I saw that RoH had a WoW division I felt something for the first time concerning WoW a sense of longing with a steady income I could afford it and after a month of being with the swtor division I switch from that one to WoW creating a whole new account away from my father away from his achievements because he had got them all nothing I had was earned by myself so it felt liberating to play WoW from scratch. I had always been interested in pvp during my rebellious youth I became second in command of a horde pvp guild before being found out by my father and forced to leave it and there was an opening to take the pvp position I came in with such grand promises that only a few months of achieving nothing I felt embarrassed by my failure and retire quickly. From then on I lost interest in wow but not the community I hang around watching from afar doing Random BG's to pass the time an occasional raid but PvE is not really my thing. Fast forward to the last part of the previous year after bouncing through ESO that flame out quickly I return to wow around  April I think I created Jinghoo best damn monk panda on the alliance side of Azeroth I learned how to tank and did so quite well at the end of Legion and into the start of Battle for Azeroth and once again the officer position for PvP came around I had mixed thoughts about this but it was the members of the WoW division that convince me to take on the role once again and I would like to think it has been far more successful. After this week it has been....a trial drama both in RL and community am not ashame to admit almost broke me but the support from everyone from members to my assistant and my DC gave me the fortitude to halt my retreat into the protective shell I created to survive high school and the interactions in RL and come out...not stronger but not as battered...baby steps.

I write this to not only celebrate my third year in this community but to the friendships, I have forged I did not write this to garner sympathy or to make anyone feel sorry for me nor do I want anyone to treat me differently after reading this but to express how important this community has become to me. Not only for my physical health but mentally as well two years ago I would never be able to do this. To put so much of myself out here for some 550 members last time I check how many people call this place home I hope everyone continues in whatever work they do to grow this community whether it be showing kindness to putting content on platforms such as youtube and Twitch... Now! "rubs hands together" lets see how many people i can get to wish me happy birthday because in 5minutes it will be!  

Happy Birthday friend, do something fun!

Happy birthday!

Happy Birthday!

Hope your week is going well! 

Hey Squeeks! At the end of the last few halloween events can you do a special feature Kitty Blu Gazette announcing all the winners and a little summary/screenshots of each event? Would be really neat! We could even post in the GW2 reddit for recruitment, especially screenshots from the necro raids and such. Let me know if that sounds like a good idea!

In other news, I may like Pusheen just a little too much.